A Bump...Already!!!

Well, there's a bump in the road already. The coordinator for my agency just emailed me and said that Kazakhstan really wants their single applicants to be making $55,000 a year. WTF? Are they insane? I DO NOT make $55,000 a year and will never make that much. I'm in Educational Theatre! So, does this mean I have to change my career to have a child? Does this mean that I have to give up my three months off in the summer, when I could be with my child ALL THE TIME, and go work at a year round, 9 to 5 job that meets the income requirements they want? This is ludicrous!! I have sooo much to give this little girl other than my take home pay. Yes, we can live quite comfortably off what I make...not like queens but we will have food in our bellies and a roof over our head and love in our home. What else do you need? I just don't understand it! It makes me want to give up on this crazy path to motherhood. Then, I look into those brown eyes and I just melt. I have to fight for this little girl!! Now, mind you, this is what the coordinator said. I have not heard from my caseworker. I have emails into both so we'll see what they say. There is a way I can "pad" my homestudy to make it look like I make close to $55,000 but I don't know if my social worker will do that. I do receive some money from my parents every month (we call it my inheritance) that would help raise my total yearly income to close to $55,000. Again, I don't know how my social worker is going to feel about including that in the homestudy (for those who don't know what a homestudy is...it is a document prepared by a licensed social worker approving you for the adoption of a child. You have to prove to the social worker that you are capable of raising a child by providing paperwork such as medical forms, criminal checks, employment letters, etc.). This is crazy!! But, I'M NOT GIVING UP!!! I'M GOING TO BE ON MY WAY TO BEING A MAMA BY THE END OF THIS YEAR IF IT KILLS ME (well, maybe not kill me but...)!!! So, please everyone, think positive thoughts! Pray, pray, and pray some more that I can sort this out! Alina needs her mama and her mama is ME!!!